Been Everyone's Girl, But Daddy's

Poem
Nov 20, 2015, 8:28 PM

"Been Everyone's Girl,but Daddy's"

(By Carmen Maria Ortiz)

Been everyone's girl. but daddy's
It's got me screwed up
My soul comes to a halt, I feel the fault
God help me take this pain I created
My heart breaks, mourning a man I can't hate
banging on the window pane"Daddy don't go away"
A monster has sealed my fate
Don't ask questions that I can't relate
I've been everyone's girl, but Daddy's
Don't feel sad for me, It was my destiny
Smothered by shadows, the pain unbearable
Screaming in parables
If I hate you would it bring you back?
So you can be the Dad I never had
They tell me " it's not just reality' It's a fact
Dad is never coming back"
I'm screaming" I'm sorry", It's my fault"
I became sick, isn't that a bitch
I had a family and it was gone in a switch
My world became a mess
Things happen to me that I can't confess
I take a deep breath, I wish for death
I feel my heart pounding out of my chest
Tears run down my face, my back is up against the wall
No one to catch me when I fall
Been Everyone's girl, but Daddy's
Not enough pills to kill the pain
Not enough alcohol in my veins
A moments of weakness
My heart on the mend. I venting to a friend
The embarrassment I feel in the end
Do you see me Daddy? Do you care?
Did it break your heart to see the scars I bare?
So forever I will walk this earth sadly
Being everyone else's girl, but Daddy's