Bad to the Bone // larry 90's au

in which louis tomlinson is brought to santa cruz california for the summer. and he happens to fall in love with the worst of santa cruz's cool kids.

❝ i remember when i couldn't bear the thought of not experiencing things and being tied down and staying with your first love forever. i hated the thought of not living. not taking advantage of youth for what i wanted. but, love crashed into my life. broke every dream, every philosophy, every inch of myself. my uniqueness, my unpure purity. everything i used to hold close to me. i thought my life was changing into something amazing with this beautiful boy i knew was mine. but he wasn't mine. i was too sure. too open. i wore my heart on my sleeve and someone flew in and sliced that wrist completely open. i'm not who i was. i'll never be that full of life. i am a deep crevasse of black, dark nothingness. and i'd love to not let one person mean so much to me or have so much power over me to let this happen but i did. and now i can never feel what i felt while with him again. not because he's gone, but because the fear of letting someone catch me so off gaurd that my entire life shatters is too frightening. ❞