What Is Love????

What is love? I am married and I have 2 beautiful kids, and yet I don't know what love is.i don't know if I love my husband.

Maybe because I tried so hard to never believe in love??? I even left america and went back to my country. I stayed there for 2 years with just my son and my husband's family. I never missed him the way loved ones did. I was so happy just with my son. This was about 3 years ago, back than I only had my son, he was 2 years old.

So my husband use to send me money every month for me and my son.
I did go through alot of trouble, but I was happy...... I slept well and ate well better than I do today. So after I lived in my country with my son for 2 years, my husband came from america. So we stayed together in my country for 5 months. We had a good 2 weeks than everything started to fall apart.