Reinvention

Do you know that feeling you get when you realize that you like someone? That slight acceleration of your heartbeat when they are around, that smile that makes it way to your face unconsciously because of their presence, that awkward silence that ensures between both of you because you act all weird around him now.
Believe me, i understand that feeling perfectly. It's just that in my case, the awkward part seems to be the main thing between Manuel and I.
But I also understand that heartbreaking feeling you get when you realize that your crush likes someone else. That strange silence followed by a stark numbness that makes you want to cry and scream at the world. I think most of us know this feeling. I hate this feeling.
So I've made a decision. I have to let go of what is hurting me. I have to reinvent myself. New clothes, shoes, hairstyle, everything. Things will be different from now on.
I refuse to feel that feeling of heartbreak. It will only make me weak and vulnerable. I am a new person now.
And the world should better get ready for me.