Life

When people look at me I feel like they see my as a big glob of nothing. Shit I feel like a big glob of nothing. But i guess that's just living the life that was handed to me. Always being told you're a big guy, always being told that you need to lose weight. Then to only reply with yes I know im gonna try to then I realize what can I really do without any encouragement, But I guess that's life huh? And then to be in love with someone who you sometimes feel doesn't love you. But through out all there mistakes you still manage to love them like no other. Some days I just want to give up hope but there's something that always stops me, I never know what though. Maybe its something deep deep down inside me that wants to keep trying but I want to give up so bad cause nothing you do seems to make everything worse. I guess this is just some of the thoughts of a young adult who just wants more to his life.