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uncontrollable (completed)

howelling-for-you

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Reads 16,510
Votes 447
Parts 30
Time 2h 50m

howelling-for-you

amazingphil angst dan danhowell danisnotonfire fluff howell lester phil phillester

When a tragedy forced Mara Smith across the atlantic ocean to London, the only person she knew was her childhood friend, Phil lester.

Two years later, her life is normal, or as normal as it'll get with her ptsd. And nightmares. And hallucinations. But still normal, boring even. Safe. That is, until she gets a threatening text, and panics. Although, she's made a few acquaintances since moving to England, she still runs to Phil, her best friend. She meets his roommate, Dan for the first time, and jumps at the chance to have another trustworthy friend. 

If juggling a dark past, threatening text messages, and trying to keep her ptsd under control wasn't enough, she had to fall for her friend. Despite her best efforts, Mara learns that our emotions are  
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