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Surrender (Phan)

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Have you ever missed someone so much, it almost feels like you've completely lost yourself? Like you lost the one thing that's kept you going? Lost your source of oxygen to survive? Lost your source of happiness? And deep down, you know there's no one to blame but yourself? Making mistakes is common. Without mistakes there would be no lessons. Though once you've made the biggest mistake of your life, it feels as though the pain is much greater than the lesson. 

"I warned you. Never leave the one you love, for the one you like."

(Trigger warning!! I'll put a warning at the beginning of the triggering chapters. Contains mentions of self-harm, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, and eating disorders, but does NOT revolve around those details and are not the main ideas of the plot/story. There will also occasionally be gay slurs in some future chapters and cussing. I hope you enjoy my first ever chapter story here on Wattpad)All Rights Reserved

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