What Is This Feeling...?
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- Dedicated to my best ally, Winnie. -
The map in her head starting to crumble as time passes by, there is no direction left for her to go. However, she still holds onto her dearest map, because she does not want to or will never follow her heart for this very matter: a boy. But when she did try to open up her heart, she feels a slight eccentric feeling - not happiness, not sadness. For the first time in forever, she could not describes how she feels. It's just so hard for her to find the exact impeccable word for it.
"Why am I feeling this way?"
"Am I still sane?"
"No, this can't be true!"
"STOP IT! I HATE FEELINGS!!"
"Wow... I didn't know my heart can be such a bitch."
"Just..."
"......What is this feeling...?"
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