Their Masterpiece (R Rated) BDSM Novel

My heart aches how was I to choose? They both made me who I am today. They both made me want them and they both wanted me to want them...now I do but I can only choose one... Not both.... One controls every aspect of me and the other wants me to want to be controlled but I want both I thrive with both.... Not one... And if I choose I will not be able to bare the hurt of the other... They love me for this I know but who can I not live without....who do I choose