The Suicide Boy

Hey guys I know this isn't much but this is how I feel.
Hi I'm Evan or Siren as my friends call me. I'm 15 and a transgender boy from Texas. My story starts off when I was little. I was in Pre K, a person came up to me and we started talking, idk what about cause I was little but some how I ended up saying I'm a boy and he told the teacher, I grew up in a christian school for reason behind what I'm about to say, well the teachers took my to the office and tried to get me to say I'm not a boy and that I'm a girl, well I refused to say I'm something I'm not. Soon enough the teacher grabbed the paddle and started hitting me, tbh I did nothing but say I'm a guy. Well that night I got a rope and put it around me neck and tried to kill myself but my dad stopped me and that's all I remember.
After that day I got maid fun of, picked on, and just straight up bullied really bad, but I kept defending myself and told them I'm a guy and kept refusing to say I'm a girl. I was never happy.