In My Mind The Past Was Perfect

Unlike the title the past wasn't perfect but he change me that's why I find him perfect. I can't really remember the me when I was younger but I'll tell you something, I didn't get much love from my mum and dad they were working all the time I only see them two days in a week, I was living with my grandma she was kind with me that's why I can say I love her more than mum. even when I was young I was so shy and quiet girl no one knows her I always find myself different from the others maybe that's why I wasn't share my thoughts and feelings with others cause I don't have trust on them or maybe they won't get my view right. So my brother comes when I was 7 old but the difference between me and him he stay with my mom at night and in the morning my dad bring him to my grandma I felt jealous cuz he take all the love but as always no one know that I wish if I were in his place but when that day comes I cried a lot my whole life change I was 12 old I was alone again