Disquieting Thoughts
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Ongoing10m
Last published Sat, Feb 3, 2018
I started this "book" when I was quite younger and the first few chapters reflect that.
I'm going to go and edit them eventually but right now, it's a part of my past when my only problem was boys and I don't want to delete that piece of my innocence from this book and in essence from my memory.
The previous summary is below and as mentioned before, the first few chapters reflect that. But as it goes on to some of my newer works, it gets a little deeper and a bit more serious. This is still a journal of sorts, but at the same time, it's so much more than that. This is my escape.
VERY IMPORTANT:
There is some talk of suicide because that is one of the issues in my life right now. Please don't read if that is an issue for you.
*Previous Summary*
This is really just a journal of sorts. Its hard for me to write a diary so this is like my alternate option.
If you are a teenage girl you could probably relate with most of this stuff.
If you're a guy you get an inside look into the world of a girl
Either way, Enjoy.
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