Secrets
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No one knows. I'm what everyone see's me as. The funny, annoying, weird girl. But what they don't know are
my secrets.
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Hey! Listen this contains suicide, weird thoughts of a girl. If you are sentimental to these kinds of things please don't read. If you don't like anything about mental illness or depressing, suicidal, anything related to that DO NOT READ IT THEN! These are my private thoughts and some of the things im going through. Dont worry im not crazy i'd just rather write it without my parents finding out than keeping it all in... Any rude, offensive comments will either be blocked or deleted.
Thank you for choosing my story if you're still here i hope i don't disappoint you guys! Wish me luck its my first book and i will edit everything after the book is done!
Enjoy!
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