Blinded || n.h au - on hold

I don't believe in love at first sight. Infatuation, sure. But love is a much, much deeper feeling, it doesn't happen just like that.
Am I a hypocrite then, when my job is to make guys fall in love with me as fast as I can? It's not that hard, I've had so much experience that I know exactly how to play my cards. I've never reciprocated those feelings. I simply do what I have to do to get them on my side.
I wonder if I have feelings at all, I certainly don't care about any of these men. I just allow them to stumble after me, doing as I tell them.
Blinded by infatuation.
He thinks he can change me.
But I don't think I'll ever change.