Darkest Nights
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Last published Tue, Jun 27, 2017
It's was bad.
When I started it in freshmen year I didn't think it would turn out like this. My life was a natural disaster spinning out of control and I couldn't help but pull the ones I love along with me.
Sometimes at night I would try to sleep and pretend it was okay, but deep down I knew that what I had started was bad and the worst wasn't over. I do these things to myself, and for what? What power, what strength am I gaining? None. Our lives were falling apart and there was no one left to blame but me. I was and addict, and all I could do was want more.
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