Stone heart (BEN Drowned cp story)

You know you need help when you're afraid to touch your computer, listen to music, look in the mirror, open the lights... When you jump every time your cell phone beeps and shriek every time you hear your name.
Those eyes... That smile... The blood... I've seen too much already. And unlike what I've been told, it's not schizophrenia if the figure is real. It's so real that you wish you were schizophrenic.
But.. No matter how crazy he makes me feel... There's something about him..
Is it his teasing laugh? Or perhaps those crystal blue eyes? It's just.. He makes me feel something..
No. I'm wrong. I can't let my guard down and fall for someone like that after what happened a few years back. I just can't.

But if this continues... I just might..