Poems To Him
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I once loved this boy, the feelings were intoxicating. It took over. I was being tortured by this unrequited love I felt for almost two years. This is my journey of figuring out how to live with it.
"Summary":
Hurt me, beat me, with the violence of words, and I will explode
But maybe it hurts for a reason
I want to hurt him
I am me because of him
Maybe I need the pain to live
The only thing I know is that I'm dying
Now I have to live with the consequences of the things he did(n't) do
He'll hurt me no matter what he does
Maybe hell and heaven are the same thing, but I choose to die his way
We would be perfectly flawed and unperfectly flawless together, if only he could love me once
But darling, I have a fear of falling apart
This is a cry for help
I'm crashing
Fight for me, fight against me, fight against him
But isn't it fear that keeps me alive also?
I don't hurt anymore
I am in so much pain
I am a disaster waiting to happen
I'm not afraid to die
A lot of love to give, and no love gotten
I love the things that kill me, and kill the things that love me
It hurts to love him, but you can love someone without loving yourself, in that destructive kind of way
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