My Dog is Lost

I want to be in control.
Not just of my body.
But in control of my life.
I want to choose what I do
and when I do it and how I do it.
I don't want people telling me
the way I'm walking is wrong.
And I don't want people looking at me,
like I'm going nowhere in my life.
I want to control everything from here on out.
I want to choose how I die.
I don't want to be afraid of walking on the street anymore.
I want to dance in the rain and smile at the sky.
I'm going to wipe the tears of the past
and push past the people stuck in their lives.
I'm going to make the ones proud,
the ones who have lead me through this journey.
I want to be in control of how I look at myself.
I don't want other people's opinions influencing mine.
I have no fear anymore.
All that bullshit bothering me yesterday is gone
because it is today and anything possible.