Anecdotes of a Suicidal(major editing till summer)
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I'm so sorry. It just got too much. I don't know what to say. Or even how to think right now. But I'm sorry. I couldn't let you see me like this. No matter how much you deny it- I was poison to your head and the world was poison to my heart.
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