Reminiscence
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I wake up in a world beyond my control everyday.
Im that girl who walks around school with fingers pointed at her.
"Thats Paisley Ulmer the girl who has all the issues with her memory."
I find myself lost temporarily. Where am I? Who are you? Why don't I know you? And then I just snap back to myself. I remember all the things that happen when I lose my memory though. Sometimes I lose it for a minute some an hour and then some a few days. I don't know how my parents cope with this or my best friend Steven but I would hate hanging around myself. The sad part about my life is I can never be on my own. I need someone by my side most of the time to monitor me like a child. I want to be free I want to have a normal life I want to be independent. I want to achieve my dreams. But this is who I am.
Yes, I'm Paisley Ulmer the weird girl who loses her memory.
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