why did I deserve this?
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I've been a bit depressed lately about a recent breakup of mine. He caused me so much pain I cried every night for hours for a week. He was such an asshole to me and I cant believe I got so heartbroken... but I guess to cope with the pain and maybe try to get over it I would write about it. I haven't written in a while, probably close to a year. Hopefully some of you will find this entertaining.
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