More than just an insomniac
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Insomnia is a sleep disorder, it makes it difficult to fall- and stay asleep.
I've been struggling with insomnia for as long as I remember. The lonely nights that where either filled with desperate cries for sleep or horrible nightmares have consumed a big part of my life now.
These are thoughts that go through my head at 4 am when. Thoughts about my life, about things that I'm struggling with and memories who haunt me.
I'm not writing this for attention or anything but for me, because in a few years I want to be able to read this all back and be happy that I (hopefully) am not struggling with this as much anymore.
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