Trapped Inside
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Last published Mon, Jan 4, 2016
What's wrong with me? They can't seem to see or hear me no matter how loud I scream out to them. I'm not dead but I am locked somewhere deep inside this body, this brain, and these awful but true heinous memories and nightmares. I have to find a way to get out of this hell I'm living inside of so I can live and became normal again.
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