Hiding from the possibility

I don't believe in love.
I don't believe in love at first sight.
I don't believe in forever.
I don't believe that two people can end up together.
I don't believe that every person will stay on their love one's side despite of hardships.
Vows in the wedding are made to be broken just like promises.

But all this time I let my heart feel coldness. But will you blame me why I'm like this? Someone just left me hanging without even saying goodbye. I know that some already experienced this but mine is a hurtful one. That person let me realized that promises are not true. Love is not true. Boys are handsome but needs to be played by girls. Girls need to hurt boys before they can hurt women. Girls are fragile. Girls needs to treated nicely. Girls must not be criticized. Girls must not be stereotyped. Girls have the ability to fight for the world. And with that girls must be cared but we will not depend on boys. Cause boys are nothing but a piece of trash that can't do anything but to break our hearts.

But one person changed my world into a fairytale and made me believe in the things I didnt believe before. But for the second time, left me hanging. Am I going to give me a second chance? Or am I going to give my heart to another person who is willing to catch and care for it. But what if he's going to hurt again for the third time? Is it time for me to play boys like toys?

My life is full of mess. I'm just a girl with no idea on what path I'm going to take. I want to hide from the possibility that I might trust someone again, that I might get broken again, that my life will literally be over. Starting right now, your gonna be the witness of the reason why I'm hiding from the possibility.