My Suicide Story
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To any of my friends who are reading this I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. Yes I always smile but it's fake and none of you saw the truth behind a fake smile. It's scary not even my family, friends or boyfriend could see the truth in a fake smile. I should have told someone I needed help I needed my friends but I was too afraid of what everyone would think so I kept it on the inside where all of my secrets could hide. So here it goes. This is my story about how I almost committed suicide....
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