Suddenly my heart skips a beat and I start crying at the thought of meeting the two most important people in my life, the people who I watched since I was 2009, the people who saved my life. About 6 months ago I was extremely depressed and starting self harming, which eventually turned into trying to drown myself and nearly jumping off a cliff or simply overdosing. I started to watch dan and phil a lot more around this time and over 3 days I wasn't eating or drinking, just watching them and eventually i started to get better. I got a mini fridge for my room and started to eat and drink more and my friends would come over about once a week to hangout and watch phan, this is when they also developed a love for the two loveable dorks. I always see people telling them they saved their lives but I never imagined I would be able to do the same.