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Not Who I Thought I Was (Werewolf & self-harm/depression love story)

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Amelia Johansen, or Lia for short, is tough. You can have no doubt about that. But that's on the outside. On the inside, she is shattered. She has been beaten and broken so many times she has little will to live anymore. But she doesn't show it. 

She has been counting the days until her sixteenth birthday because that's when she will do it. She will wait out the day and plan for the right moment. When it comes, she plans to kill herself. She can't handle her "life" anymore. If you can even call it a life. 

But as midnight rolls around on the eve of her birthday, something happens. She wakes with a start as she feels sudden pain all over. She doesn't cry out since she can't but just tries to wait for the pain to go away. But as less than a full minutes goes by, she slowly is turning into a wolf! 

After that, life just gets a lot more strange and complicated for her. She meets her wolf, learns to control parts of her abilities, and is able to escape! But that's only the beginning. 

And then everything starts to come back together when she meets her mate. But how should she react?

Find out Amelia's life when she discovers she is not who she thought she was. 

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This is my first werewolf story. But I've read a ton of them before I decided to write this. If this ends up being similar to other stories please let me know so I can change it as soon as I can. Please and thank you! Hope you enjoy it!

Started on January 8, 2016(CC) Attrib. NonComm. NoDerivs

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