Nothing.
That's exactly what I had at this exact moment.
I lost my family, I lost my best friend, I lost my marriage, I lost myself.
They sure as hell was right when they said the devil doesn't come to you with his red face and horns, he comes to you disguised as everything you ever wanted. He came in his purest form of trickery, knowing exactly what he was doing. He fooled me, and now I'm here left with nobody but just myself.
How could I be so stupid? How could I allow somebody to take everything from me? How could I just fall in his trap of games and deceit? Well, these are all good ass questions that I wish I had the answer too.
It was as if I could see my mom looking down from above, shaking her head wanting to kick me to the curb as well. I deserved it. I had it made. A nice job and pay going for myself, a nice family at home, a caring husband that declared his love for me every second of his day, and I screwed it all up over someone that treated me as if I was his little experiment.
All I could really say after this is, be careful.
Because all that glitters ain't gold.
My name is Brianna, my father left the house and now it's me and my ma now. She's been crying and crying, worst than she use to when my father use to beat her up, he used to beat me up and try to sexually abuse his own daughter. You can't say the world is always perfect because it's not, this world is basically f***ed up. Everything they see, they wanna go and try crap but you're basically ruining somebody's life, but when that person is so ignorant, they're too dumb to even realize that they're basically saving your life. You didn't want help but you needed it and it's not to say that you tried hard, you didn't do your best. You're basically blaming the other person for your wrongs and it was the best thing that you can ever have. That person threw you out the window and you can't say it wasn't for a good cause because everything happens for a reason. I'm basically talking about myself... My ma started drugs and started to be 'a sl**' (at least that what everybody calls her out on) , she kicked me out and I knew it was gonna happen sooner or later and I surprisingly left there with pride. I was out on the streets and I met the most f***ed up person that I've ever met in my life but the thing is that, I couldn't help but fall, hard. I don't know what the hell is love but it sure feels like it...
[Roc Royal Love Story]