So I've Been Told

"Ah, I love you." I jumped at this, since it was so out of the blue. My emotions were a wreck, shifting from confusion, excitement, and shock all at the same time. I didn't even know if I was going to say it back or not. My stomach erupted butterflies and I couldn't control it. It'd felt as if everyone had paused because everything was so silent right then.

He looked so cute then, curled up on the grassy field. His dirty blond hair was covering his face, his hands clutched to his chest. It's been a while since I'd said it to him face to face. It was a few weeks back and my mind was foggy from Melissa's suicide note and I'd said it for the first time.

I exhaled, my breath shaky and clouded. I really didn't care though, and I wasn't sure he noticed. . . I was going to say it, maybe this would change everything or maybe nothing at all. I didn't know.

"I love. . . You too." I really meant it, and I think Josh did too. We were both falling so hard for one another. We both needed one another's support in order to stay up. That was then and this was now. I'm sitting on my bed, trying to figure out what went wrong. On the same bed that we shared out first kiss together on. There were a lot of firsts that day, that I will never forget.