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When I Eat, I Hate Myself A Little More

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Parts 24
Time 3h 4m

anorexia anxiety boy bulimia demon depression fiction girl harm high hope love novel real recovery romance school teen teenager

Lindsey Clarke, 16 and free.
  
  But somehow, freedom and happiness does not really come in a package.
  
  "Anorexia nervosa, depression, self harm, social anxieties are not just phases of life. They become your closest friends and haunt you every step of the way." , is what I say.
  
  "It's just a phase", is what they all say.All Rights Reserved

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I'm Not Who You Think

Behind every person, there's an untold story. Stevie is just your average girl--or so she makes it seem. Everyday she acts like everything is alright, but behind closed doors she battles with anorexia nervosa and self harm. Her best friend has never even noticed. One day, this boy Jake moves to town. Stevie notices small things about him. As they grow closer, the question remains: can they save each other before its too late?