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The pain behind her smile

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Parts 13
Time 1h 21m

Ilus, a 16 year old girl who moved from Estonia when her dad cheated and even blamed her mum for it!
Her mum used to be strong but now is a wreck, Ilus finds her self only happy when she harms herself. She loves to draw and read but can't stop putting herself in pain.
She had two friends who were a massive part of her life, now they're: One of the nerds at school (Christopher) and the 'popular' kid (Daniel) who hasn't looked at her since they started secondary. 

Could this trio be re-made? What will happen with new characters come into Ilus's life: Alice, Emily, Mike, Kurt and Sam. Will ilus fall in love, have friends, be 'cool' and have a proper family... Or will she just keep harming herself? Which guy will be best for her and can anything be simple? Especially when a man keeps appearing near her.

It has sad parts in as well as happy one and hopefully a writing skill that will blow your mind! I'm not that good at writing, I don't have an editor and I'm sure there are  holes in the plot or spelling mistakes but no hate please!! I'll try my best and I hope you enjoy this and be sure to check out my profile. :) xxxx
Follow your dreams!!
-May1919All Rights Reserved

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