Well have you??
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Have you ever felt so apart from the world u cant help but cry?
Have you ever cried so much you can't even bring yourself to shed another tear so you just stare emotionlessley at the wall?
Have you ever been so terrified that you can feel your insides tearing apart fighting to escape?
Have you ever needed to be free so badly your heart aches for it and you find yourself mentally running for miles and miles, but then you snap into concious and feel the unbrakeable cage closing in on you... crushing you... killing you?
Well have you??
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