Sinking

'Just ten more seconds. Ten more seconds of weakness and you're back to being your cold self', I told myself firmly.

I counted to ten silently and then stood up wiping my cheeks and making my face expressionless. I then put my hand up and pulled out my locket from beneath my shirt.

"If you want the rainbow you've got to deal with the rain," I imagine my mom's voice reminding me.

But what if the rain just keeps getting thicker and faster mom? What then?'

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Everyday Cara Lawson bears the death of her mother from a car accident three years ago. But slowly, in the agonizing time since, she pulled herself back together, piece by piece by broken piece, locking away her emotions in a part of her heart visible only to her siblings. Pushing away all but her siblings, even her very best friends, she was a shell of a person that she was before her mother's death. But at least she was surviving.

And then her father falls ill with terminal cancer, slowly succumbing to a painful death.

And then... well everything goes to hell.

Left alone at 18, oldest of four and now the guardian of her three siblings, she retreates into a lonely darkness putting up walls to prevent herself from ever loving anyone again (unless it's her siblings). But as is bound to happen, at the end of every tunnel their is light. And Cara's light happens to go by the name Parker Stone, Stonewall High's very own personal bad boy. Along with an old ex best friend and Max McCall of course. ;)

**My very first book guys hope you like it ❤ The veryyyyy epicly awesomly beautiful cover made by Dani @aLovelyDaydream who herself is an amazing person ❤❤❤