Broken

Do you ever feel sad? Sometimes for no reason? Sometimes for all the reasons? I do. There comes a point in when everyone goes through a stage where the smallest things can make us sad. Hearing a song, walking past an old hang out spot, pictures, videos. We all break, even the people who are the strongest, especially the strongest. Being strong isn't always the best thing, sometimes its what destroys us the most. The most common question we ask ourselves is "what did I do to deserve this?" Life didn't come with instructions, so we just have to free hand it. Its like building a desk with no instructions, you just have to figure out what pieces go where and screw it together until it all comes together perfectly. Am I the only one that has a sibling and is scared for them? Scared that the world will make them suffer so bad that they can't and won't take anymore? I am, with both of my siblings, with everyone. The most important question is "what can I do to stay happy?" The answer? We don't. Life has a funny way of working like that, except it isn't really all that funny. We think everything is going great, then? Then we get heart broken.. we stop working at a happy state. When we were younger all we wanted to do was grow up, now that we are grown up we want to be little again. The most important thing to do is to remember that our bodies need a break, relax sometimes. Ha.. I should take my own advice. Always give your best in 100% of the things you do. Never let life get the best of you, I know, easier said than done. It may seem like it isn't getting better and this sounds so clique, but there are better opportunities, we just have to wait. I'm broken, I cry.. a lot, more than I'd like to admit, and no one knows that about me. I'm made out as this strong- willed woman, I'm not. I'm weak. People assume because there are things from my past that I've "moved" past, things that make me cry myself to sleep most nights. I just have to carry myself..