Call me Erika
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Last published Mon, Jul 4, 2016
-How do I find myself without losing myself first?
You can't, but if you loose yourself you have to know how to find a better self.
-and what if I fall and no one catches me?
You will have to get up by yourself Erika. I know you can do it.
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This story is About a girl and how she manages to go through life even though she knows it's harder than it looks. She has lost a lot in the past but she doesn't want that past to destroy her future. A future that can be bright if she leaves the bad people aside ,and focuses on the people that really matter. She can't just hide herself with things that make her forget. Looking for help might help but if she really wants to stop she has to start doing something herself.
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