Stay With Me

A month ago. I received the most unbearable news. I had arrived home from school late that evening when my father looked at me with teary eyes, clinging to my Aunt and said these words.
"Your sister didn't make it"
Those four words cut through me like a knife. My sister didn't make it? No i must not have heard right. I could not come to terms with the news
"wh- wh-what? I had stuttered, staring intently into his eyes, hoping he had made an error and meant to say she was fine. but this was not the next few words my dad uttered
"She passed away Jess" he croaked. "Jada is.. "
He could not finish the sentence and I could not bear to hear the word .Immediately my dad started crying hysterically. I watched as my Aunt, his sister held him as he shook uncontrollably.
Tears streamed down my face as I fell to the ground with my face in my palms sobbing. I knew then that my life would never be the same. I had just lost my sister who was only 15, my best friend, the only person I knew I could always count on.
My dad pulled me from school so that i could mourn. I knew I had to go back eventually, I graduated in a few months, and I needed to pass my finals. Going back to school was going to be difficult. I knew this, especially since I have been avoiding my boyfriend Dave, in the month that I was absent from school. I hate to sound selfish but i was too hurt and angry to love him. Fist my mom, and now my sister. I lost my mom when I was only 5, and Jada was 2. I was emotionally unstable. Losing a loved one changed me,and it wasn't for the better. My small family was no longer the same, it was even smaller now and our world had drastically turned upside down. To love someone seemed unselfish to me, as I truly did not want to live or to even be happy in a world where my sister did not exist.
I therefore vowed never to love again. I was intent on keeping this vow...... until I met Jared
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