{Heaven} -Phan
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Last published Thu, Jan 21, 2016
Daniel Howell isn't like most 16 years olds, he pretty much is a carer for his younger brother, he suffers with depression alike his mother, he excepts death and doesn't give a shit about it oh and he's Demisexual. So when new boy Phil Lester joins the school and beings to try and become friends with Dan things mess up a little and Dan slowly but surely falls for Phil even though he doesn't realise it.
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[ this story does contain, Bulling, Depression & Cutting so please don't read if you're triggered!]
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