he is truly one of the meanest guys I've ever met. he's condescending, and very rude, he can be so close off and goes away for days at a time. but whenever he does tell me things though, I treasure each little bit I get with all I have. he's really flirty, he's beautiful and despite what I said before he's beautiful on the inside too, he can be very kind. he's a good people reader too. he listen even when he says he doesn't. he has an amazing laugh, even if I don't get to hear it often. he's funny and we argue a lot, I've cried a few times, but nothing has ever made my feelings diminished because he's never made me feel like he doesn't deserve it. he's suspicious of love because he's been hurt deeply, the kind of hurt that scars your soul not just your heart, but that's okay because I've been hurt like that too. which is what makes me love him so much more, I want to help him.
"I can't trust you, I can't listen to you, I can't believe you. I want nothing to do with you get the fuck out of my life Harry!" I yell at him while tears start forming in my eyes but I blink them away quickly. I will not be weak not now not after everything.
"I don't understand I just wanna be with you Jess why is that so hard to believe why do you keep treating me like shit when all I do is treat you like a fucken princess I want you, I want to be with you, I care for you, I can treat you just the way you deserve to be treated just please listen to me I-"
I rudely cuts him off before he can continue with his lie "I don't want to listen to you your just going to hurt me and leave me like everyone else just save yourself some energy and leave already" he stares into my eyes trying to find a glimise of hope but theres nothing there just dark, lifeless.
"What don't you understand I'm not going anywhere."