Lose or Love Yourself
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  • Reads 274
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  • Parts 5
  • Time 52m
Ongoing, First published Jan 13, 2016
Previously "It All Started With a Facebook Poke" and felt like the title didn't really live up to what the whole story is actually about. Here's the new title, and a new cover. Thanks!
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"I don't know which parts of my personality are mine and which ones I created to please you." 
After a disastrous break-up, Alexa Adler Holmes entertained a lot of guys to keep her mind off the painful event. (She's not usually like this but you can't really blame her on the ways she tried to kill her sadness, can you?) She eventually found Ethan Dartmith Wylde who made her feel what she has always wanted to feel: loved, owned and protected. As she tries her best to keep him, it has seemed she has lost herself. When do you really draw the line, this time? Is this where the "It's not you, it's me" line comes in proper context? Read on and find out.

I hope my story could teach you that you are precious, that you do not need a guy's approval to be a great person, you don't need his compliments for you to feel beautiful, you don't have to impress him to feel you are amazing; you don't have to bend your back and give him everything you got without leaving some for yourself; because people who ask you for your everything will never be contented if you give them everything. (And if it wasn't obvious, yes, I'm a Sherlock Holmes fan.)

P.S. btw, there's a lot of cursing in this story. Just be guided accordingly - or something.
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I could hear her footsteps running behind me; so I intentionally made long steps. When I stopped and turned around she bumped into my chest and about to fall. Suddenly I urged myself to breakdown her fall. But she closed her eyes and got ready to take the fall; she looked like a baby in fear, it's kind of cute.I grabbed her with my arms around her slimy waist and her little hand too. She fits right into my arms. My heart skipped a bit when she opened her eyes and looked at me. Her eyes went wide when it captured mine. Her eyes sure have some magnetic power. I can't take my eyes away from her. We both are too close; that I could feel her breath. When reality hits I slowly made her stand on her own and moved back. I threw the book at her. She looked at me with confusion. I showed my anger at her for acting like an innocent person. I know the reason for my anger is that she disappointed me when I thought that she was different. But to my surprise the one who left the book at car was Hanna. I can't make myself to say sorry to some idiotic random girl. So just walked back when I suddenly heard someone calling me by my name. "Nicholas" she yelled. I turned around to see the same small girl standing there. How dare she call me by my name? She gave me a grin with her hand folded to her chest. She tries to act like tough girl but it's too cute to watch. So I just stood there. But she went out off limits and questioned me if I like her? Me? Like? Her? No way ! Here comes our protagonist Candice called Candy - Chatter box but cute and friendly to everyone. No one could hate her except Nick. Nicholas called Nick- Handsome but arrogant, college senior who thinks the earth revolve around him. How do these two opposite poles have them attracted????