Hold And Let Go
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Last published Sat, Jan 28, 2017
"I'm sorry, but I don't get it. If we're supposed to ignore everything that's wrong with our lives, then I can't see how we'll ever make things right."
― A.S. King, Please Ignore Vera Dietz
"...And as we drove away, I could see the sky and it looked bluer than I had ever know. Like I was seeing everything for the first time. Colors, sounds, who I was, but I couldn't get that feeling again. I looked at the sky and the grass and the college buildings, but the moment was gone, and so was I."
"This wasn't something I signed up to do. I didn't promise or give my word or swear it. I didn't do anything to deserve this. Nothing. But I got it anyway. I got all the shit that you shove to the back of your mind to forget. I got all the shit that holds me by the throat. I got all the shit that no one ever wants, that no one ever deserves, all the shit that makes you feel like you're drowning except your head is above the water and you're breathing just fine."
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