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I am not me

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Parts 19
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anxiety autobiography dissorders life recovery relationships

Hey, it's nice to meet you. I'm going to leave this introduction plain and simple, for not every story begins with a fiery explosion. My name is Nicole. This is my auto-biography. My life isn't the most exciting, it's not the most unique, and it's not the most beautiful. It's just mine; and I take pleasure in writing all about it. For whatever reason you may be reading it, I thank you for taking the time to slow down and put yourself in someone else's shoes. It gives you an idea of what it's like for people with different experiences than you. To read through the pages of a real, un-staged modern girl. I hope you enjoy.

- NicoleAll Rights Reserved

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♡Do everyone deserve to be loved?♡ It had been one year since Sofia was released from the asylum. She was suffering from dissociative identity disorder (DID/ multi-personality disorder) from her childhood. Shadow was her other personality. Although Sofia and Shadow personalities got merged after her 2 years of treatments, she showed difference in her behaviour. Despite of obstacles they faced together, they only wished to stay in each other's embrace. But what will happen when she start to split further more? _you are freaking splitting again. Why can't you understand? _ Do you still deserve to be loved? _ Thank you for reminding me over and over that I don't deserve a normal life _you deserve the whole world ☆ Read this story to know how their life goes on with many obstacles

Confessions of a autosexual ✔️ by dawa-tenzin

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Life Goes On by thelondynsummer

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ EXTREMELY GRAPHIC AND EXPLICITLY DETAILED CONTENT. Despite all of the chaos and trauma I had to endure at such an early age, life in fact must go on. All of those failed attempts at trying to unalive myself, I am still here today. Although I am not proud of my past attempts, I'm extremely grateful to be here today because had I not been here today. None of this would ever be possible. If I could describe my life in one sentence, I'd say "my life is a fucking shitshow and you're all invited." Over the years, I've had time to grow, mature and become my very own person. I could've chose to give up, but something made me stay. Someone made me stay.

My Actual Diary Part-2 by Santa_ams

I am back... In "My Actual Diary Part 2," I delve deeper into my inner thoughts and emotions, reflecting on the highs and lows of my journey. Each entry serves as a reminder of my growth and resilience, showcasing the power of self-reflection and self-discovery. Through my words, I find solace and clarity, navigating through life's twists and turns with courage and authenticity. This diary is not just a record of my experiences, but a testament to my strength and determination to embrace the present and shape my future. This diary contains all of my personal thoughts, experience, feelings, dreams and my current events happening in my life. ~xxMichanxx~ P.S NOTE: (Read at your own risk)

Hello And Welcome To My Life by FreeFlyer68

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Romancing my self | a memoir by theartofscary

This is my final memoir for this part of my life at least that being said this is just about the positive only. This is more about loving my self and some good memories that I have had as a kid. You're still may be some hard topics that people will not be able to swallow but that is life. I am human trying to live a decent life.

Maze of memories by DawnOfTimes

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Flames of Phoenix ( mystery of shadow-book 2 )

♡Do everyone deserve to be loved?♡ It had been one year since Sofia was released from the asylum. She was suffering from dissociative identity disorder (DID/ multi-personality disorder) from her childhood. Shadow was her other personality. Although Sofia and Shadow personalities got merged after her 2 years of treatments, she showed difference in her behaviour. Despite of obstacles they faced together, they only wished to stay in each other's embrace. But what will happen when she start to split further more? _you are freaking splitting again. Why can't you understand? _ Do you still deserve to be loved? _ Thank you for reminding me over and over that I don't deserve a normal life _you deserve the whole world ☆ Read this story to know how their life goes on with many obstacles