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I felt worthless. I couldn't speak. It's my own fault, really. I wish I wasn't this broken. I suppose it only comes to me naturally, though.
It's not like I have a condition or anything. I just decide speaking is a waste of time. There's no point when you are constantly told you are worthless by the people you trusted the most.
I didn't hurt anymore. I've learned to become numb. I used to have a pain in my heart so unbearable I thought of suiside, the only thing that would make the constant pain go away. I just want to sleep.
I simply didn't have the strength to speak anymore. I couldn't trust anyone.
Some would say I'm broken.
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