Hi, I'm Blake Walker, a 16 year old mute girl who has a tragic past. My mother was brutally killed by my own father. Maybe it was because I ACCIDENTALLY killed 10 people including my best friend? I was young and I didn't know anything at that time. There were at least 30 witnesses, 30 people who knew what I did...but the question is, why did my father kill his wife? Why didn't he killed me instead?
After my father killed her, he told me that I should do only one thing if I ever wanted to be alive..."Be mute, tell no one about this because if you do... I'll kill your brother!"... My baby brother... the only family I have left... I really wish I could see him again... I don't even know if he's still alive, but I have hope.
Well enough about the past, let me tell you about the present.
I have a diary, everything that happened that night was written there. I was so stupid to write it there... but I can't throw that diary away, burn it or tear a piece it, why you ask? it was from my mother. My only remembrance from her. That diary was my treasure. But I can't let anyone read it or else they'll know what happened, the sin that I committed. But thank God that I have a lack of presence! I don't really socialize with other people or else they'll ask about my past, and I can't do that since I don't want blood being shed.
I thought that I wasn't going to make mistakes again or that I wasn't gonna do any stupid accidents again...But I ACCIDENTALLY dropped my diary somewhere and the new student, Nathan Clarke noticed me and ACCIDENTALLY read my diary?!!
What would he do? What's gonna happen to him? Is he going to understand my condition and help me? Read to find out.
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Sorry guys, I'm not really good with making descriptions. If you don't like it
then don't read it!
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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