Steven universe - no need to cry

Have you ever looked up to someone who wasn't real, to want to strive to be people that you knew only through a illusion. That's how I felt when I watched Steven universe. I felt like I could escape all my problems when I was in front of the screen. I wanted to protect the people I loved like the crystal gems did. But I was only a weak 13 year old with a strange dream. And I definitely couldn't protect my family now... Because I just watched them die.

I was in the crashed car as the snow came down. Glass was shatterd and the other car was in bits. My family... They all looked lifeless in front of me, I coulnt move, I coulnt feel, I felt my life slipping away. Excruciating pain in my shoulder did not help, it was the only thing that stood out, my vision faded I started to feel the glass in my neck and the metal piece in my head but it didnt hurt as much as my shoulder.

I always wanted to do something extraordinary, to live like no other and to only have good intentions like Rose quartz but that was not possible now. I wish I could live like how I wanted...