Grown Up

okay well one time when i was a younger i wanted to join in a gang in santa maria called northwest the reason i wanted to do so is because i thought that since gangsters get all the money and fame that if i do the same that i would too well when i did get jumped in it was hurtful thing from that point on because once i had to go against my family and friends just because my homies told me to do so. also when i was younger after joining i got to experience my first time to jump someone and what happened is that my homie had a blade and stabbed him in the chest and killed him once he was in the ambulance it was the first time in my life i got to see someone dead in my life after that i was never the same i started to steal money out of my moms purse and go buy dope and heroin for me and my homies it was all cool till one day i showed up in school and got caught up with drugs in my backpack i did 3 months for having and selling dope to minors while i was in there i realized i need to get my head straight and worry about my girlfriend that i was dating during the time and so i did and several months later she told me she was pregnant with my child it was the most shocking part of my life to know that i was bringing someone into this world but also scary to know that i wasn't prepared for it so i got a job with my dad at the age of 14 or 15 i would have to say it was all going good till she was drinking and driving and kill her and my child since then i never expected in this world to change that quick well that part of my life. A year went by and I'm 16 years old i moved away from the environment to a city named lompoc. it's a small town filled with violence and graffiti art is everywhere it went bad to worst but as a 16 year old boy i had to stay strong or else the streets will take another dead body with them.