I'm not Phil. - Eternally missed - Wattpad

Story cover for I'm not Phil. by 1of-akind

I'm not Phil.

Reads 102
Votes 4
Parts 5
Time 16m

Reads 102
Votes 4
Parts 5
Time 16m

agnst amazingphil boyxboy dan danisnotonfire fluff howell invisibleharmx lester phil phần romance sad

Phil wakes up in hospital with no memory of how he got there or why hes there. He proceeds to carry on with his life only to develop feelings for his roommate Dan until when he starts to remember the ghastly truth about how he ended up in hospital, he try's to escape a co-dependant relationship only to find out he's the problem.

Warning: swearing and the fact I wrote the first two chapters like a year ago so it's shit but it gets better I hope haha

This book may also be quite confusing but it should make sense at the end because a lot of things aren't as they seem. 

(Slow updates)All Rights Reserved

agnst amazingphil boyxboy dan danisnotonfire fluff howell invisibleharmx lester phil phần romance sad

Table of contents

5 parts

Sign up to add I'm not Phil. to your library and receive updates

or

Content Guidelines

You may also like

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Dreamer [Phanfiction] by morphiuma

Enrolling into one of the best universities in the country, Phil Lester is ecstatic. But all of his excitement fades away when he meets his new roommate, Dan Howell, who has his mind set upon getting Phil transferred rooms. Dan is cold to him from the beginning, but Phil believes he could be hiding something from him. Whatever the secret may be, he promises to stick by Dan no matter what. But when time at university becomes more difficult, they both take whatever consequences mean necessary and soon, end up as runaways. [Neko Phanfiction]

$Crime Can't Love \/ Phan \/ COMPLETE by LiterallyJustCase$

" For the first time I felt I saw Daniel Howell, the lonely boy who puts everything into his job so he can feel there are some people out there who will not leave him. And for the first time Dan saw me, Philip Michael Lester, the suicidal runaway who's constantly haunted by his regrets. The secretive boy that will never let himself get attached and hurt others. ,, ~ We Truly Saw Eachother - Chapter 24 ------------------- Aka: Phil's a ruthless crime-lord and the boss of the Mafia. The job's dangerous, so he can't really be bothered to make friends or relationships if he's just going to scare them or drive them away... But that doesn't mean he doesn't get lonely. Dan's a famous internet celebrity who spreads word about mental illness and brings joy to many lives. He values his image and career above nearly everything else, but that means he thinks he doesn't have time for relationships of any kind. Even before they meet, they impact each other, no matter how much Phil hates what he's done. Started: 9.10.18 (British date) Completed: 24.8.19 Edited: 18.10.19 - ??.??.?? TW: Robbery, Gangs, mugging, murder, crime, one-night stands, relationship and family abuse, multiple suicides, major character death, smut (optional and put in another book), kidnapping, minor character death, mental issues. The cover is completely my own artwork, so stOP ASKING

Talk To Me by Purpletiger333

Part 1 Phil is the new boy to school. Dan is the loner who doesn't talk. After his new friends, Chris and Pj, convince him to talk to him, Phil finds himself fascinated with him. As they grow closer he learns that the silent boy has a lot more to him. Part 2 After high school Dan and Phil moved in together, growing closer than before. As Phil finds out more and more about Dan's horrible past he finds himself feeling something more... Does Dan? What are they going to do though when Dan finally breaks? Can Phil fix him? And after 5 years of asking of Phil asking 'talk to me' will he? A/N Part 1 is mostly an in-depth backstory if you want to skip, although it might not make sense then. It also contains no actual 'Phan'. It will be entirely Phils POV for part 1 and mostly Phil for part 2. This book was inspired by 'Speak Up Already' by Geniusotaku. This is my first fan fiction so constructive criticism is appreciated. Credit to whoever made the cover, idk who it was I just found it. Completed! Contains: Phan (duh), KickTheStickz, Troyler, minor Zalfie. WARNING!!!! This book will probably be VERY triggering!! CONTAINS: attempted suicide, triggering thoughts, boyxboy, anorexia, depression, anxiety, selective muteness, abuse.

Midnight || Phan {Complete} by somesortofuser

Daniel Howell and Phil Lester have gone through a lot together. ***TRIGGER WARNING- SELF HARM / SUICIDE ATTEMPTS / DEPRESSION / HOMOSEXUALITY /SAD/ANGST***

Our Missing Piece | Phanfic by XxKitty_ScreamzzzxX

We all know Dan Howell and Phil Lester are madly in love. But as happy as they are something is simply missing. Are you there missing piece?

Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

Those Who Love | Phan by mychemicalsophiee

Dan is a prince - and a different one at that. Usually you'd think that being a prince is a dream come true, but not for Dan. He just wants a normal life, normal friends, maybe a boyfriend... Finally, he gets the chance to move to a place far away from his small kingdom and live with his Auntie Eleanor. The problem? He has to pretend that he's not a prince. Lying? He's not so great at that. But for someone who wanted a boyfriend but hated the idea of love, he never expected to actually fall in love. Phil Lester. The boy with the black hair, who actually likes Dan for Dan. And so Dan can't tell him that he's a prince in a place on the other side of the world - and he wants it to stay that way. Otherwise he'll have to move back home and never return. Will everybody find out? Will his chance at a normal life be ruined? Dan finds out that not everything is always normal, and most definitely, you can never avoid being one of those who love.

pretend (phan) by audrat

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then Dan's parents decide he needs to love someone rather than himself, and when Phil shows up at his mansion steps, Dan's parents grow fond of him- so much that the two are exchanging rings and Phil is moving in with his new spouse. They tell Dan he should give it a few months, to be patient, and if he still doesn't like him then they'll sign the divorce papers and call it quits. Marriage isn't perfect, right? Well this one is the exact example. But they could always pretend.

Hush《D.H.+P.L.》 by phandomtrashlord

A highschool AU in which Phil is a silent, broken boy, and Dan wants to fix him. But maybe he'll break him for good. ☆Really cringy and bad but kinda okay☆ {Lonnnggggg chapters after the prologue btw, at least 2,000 words per chapter my dudes} 《Trigger warning guys, be careful!!!》

You may also like

Slide 1 of 10

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] cover

Dreamer [Phanfiction] cover

$Crime Can't Love \/ Phan \/ COMPLETE cover$

Talk To Me cover

Midnight || Phan {Complete} cover

Our Missing Piece | Phanfic cover

Danny's Girl (Phan) cover

Those Who Love | Phan cover

pretend (phan) cover

Hush《D.H.+P.L.》 cover

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE]

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?