I'm not Phil.
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Last published Thu, May 3, 2018
Phil wakes up in hospital with no memory of how he got there or why hes there. He proceeds to carry on with his life only to develop feelings for his roommate Dan until when he starts to remember the ghastly truth about how he ended up in hospital, he try's to escape a co-dependant relationship only to find out he's the problem.
Warning: swearing and the fact I wrote the first two chapters like a year ago so it's shit but it gets better I hope haha
This book may also be quite confusing but it should make sense at the end because a lot of things aren't as they seem.
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