Taking My Time To Fall In Love

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" Why do you seem so lonely ? " he asked .

I just shrug and ignore him and continued eating my lunch . I have no friends because I always push them away and I never show emotion . This why I have the title Ice Queen .

" Have you ever fallen in love ? Has anyone loved you ? " he asked and I stopped eating . Everyone in the cafeteria has stopped eating and eavesdropped in the conversation too .

" No . I have never fallen in love . No one will ever love or care about me . Besides , I can never feel emotions . I can never fall in love ." I said sincerely .

" No . That is not true . I will prove to you that someone does care about you . And I will prove to you that you can love . You can count on me . " he said . And for the first time in my life , I actually feel happy . I felt love and affection . And then i blushed a deep red .

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All my life , I have been living in a cold world called earth . People who saw me would go away or either hurt me . It doesn't matter . I have felt pain for more than what I can remember . I've practically felt so much pain , that I might be immune to it . I can't even differentiate love and affection from hatred and pain .

But , sometimes when you're alone , you just wish for someone to be there for you and listen to you . I've longed for someone to be there , but I don't know if they'll ever come . I want to love someone , I want to feel love and affection . But that's what hurt me all these years .

But can I get through the pain to get what I want ? Somebody who would love me ? Can someone actually love me , even after all the danger I could bestow upon them ?? Can someone love me with all the heavy luggage I have on my shoulders ?

Maybe .