my immortal damage
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Ongoing39m
Last published Sat, Mar 11, 2017
sometimes i feel like i want to give up and die , i feel like i don't be long here like i'm not human because no one can understand me or no one have humanity i can see them all . their reality , the way they talk and live it's all fake no one worth the pain and the cry no one deserve good things
those are the the thoughts and the feelings of me everyday anyway i'm Oliver im 18 a regular boy who hate everything and love everything too . i'm skinny i have a glasses and a long hair (in my town when they find a boy with a long hair they call him gay) maybe i'm a weirdo too not beautiful and lifeless i like metal music and i don't talk too much and shit ....
this is a story about my life and how i'm living it's a story that i myself still don't believe it
a story based on a real events just read it till the end it will make you lose your mind
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