Hopeles
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Last published Thu, Jan 28, 2016
Meinchmal lohnt es sich nicht wirklich zu leben. Besonders dann wenn man alleine ist. Dann wenn man schon so kaputt ist das dich überhaupt nichts mehr interisiert. Wenn du so weit bist das dich niemand mehr noch weiter kaputt machen kann. Wenn dein Leben schon so weit gesunken ist das du gar keine Kraft mehr hast überhaupt noch aufzutauchen. Wenn du schon so viel versucht hast. Wenn du den Moment erreicht hast an dem du sagen kannst es interresiert mich nicht, es ist mir vollkommen egal. Ich bin mir selbst ja auch egal. Gefühe tot. Leben zerstört. Körper kaputt. Herz zerbrochen.
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