I'm from this small seaside village called Armonia. On an island called Musica. My family's name is Mattina. Mama and Papa were lovely. They taught me how to play many instruments, like ukulele, guitar, drums, piano, flute, harmonica, violin, cello, and most importantly my voice. They raised me to sing. Armonia means Harmony in Italian. Musica is music, and Mattina is morning. Mama says I am the harmony to the music of the morning.
I was outside playing my uke on the beach around the corner by myself. That's how this all started. "I've got hopes and dreams to fly away, I can say goodbye to yesterday, just take me away." I sang. Some of my own lyrics. "Okay." A voice said from behind me. I looked at the stranger in surprise. "I can take you anywhere, and it won't cost a thing." He said gently. I stood up and stepped towards him. "I have never met you before" I told him softly. "Big city." He said. "No, small village" I said. Then I noticed his clothes. Not from around here.
I had always been scared of the ocean. Of the way the waves crash against the rocks, how light could not reach its furthest depths. I especially did not like the way the ocean looked at night and how you can't see anything past the shoreline. There is only the dark and you. What I'm most scared of, however, is the way water does not let you go once it has you.
So why is it that I'm flirting with my fears now? I stand at the edge where sand and water meet. Watch the way it just barely reaches my toes before receding back, rinse and repeat. I wonder how quickly the current could snatch me up. I wonder how long it'll take for my lungs to fill. I wonder, I wonder, I wonder- all kinds of things and all kinds of ways. A feeling settles itself in my chest; tight and foreboding. I know what it means.
I will die swallowed by the sea.
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Life had a way of being particularly cruel to Julia Jennings. She sits on the edge between apathy and anger most days. What becomes of her is of no real concern to herself. However, a chance meeting with Louis Tomlinson brings a vibrancy to her life she hadn't been prepared for. It also unfolds a web of mysteries that started years ago with the first letter...
CONTENT WARNINGS: abuse / drug use / violence / mental health / sexual content / suicidal ideation